Would You Ever?
I want to tell a story
But it may indict me
Implications that are possible
A man ignores his wife
A man ignores her needs
Acquiescence as avoidance
Never touching voluntarily
But I digress
Or possibly justify
What I am saying not yet said
Spinning words around to not say
To you
What I am never going to say
SAY IT!
So…
A dark laundry room a party drinks
A door open a spot to be alone
I go parking myself
I thought inconspicuously
Sipping slowly watching and feel heat
Did I mention this
Well this is fantasy fiction
All in my mind
But again, I digress
So heat, alone, darkness
And then you
You walk in a prize bull
In the marketplace of my day dreams
Not drunk yet you drink
Not enough so you stink of it
I see your face your smile forms
You eyes lock like sights
I know I am a target
And yet…
You lips look so softly wet
You lean against a wall
You swig swallow lick the beer off your lips
Did I mention your lips look suckably sweet?
We talk we banter we bicker and bullshit
And there it is this unspoken conversation
Our bodies our chemistry has
This creation of more heat
This current that has moved into my thighs
So that even my day dream self
Knows it she tried to walk or even stand
She would stumble into you
And you are moving away from the wall
With each word like if we keep
The talk going the walk going
You would be here I mean here in my space sooner
And my mouth waters my breaths shortens
My skin, even in the unlit room, reddens
The banter becomes flirtation becomes daring
Invitation challenge
And for so many reasons it is wrong
But that is why fantasies are useful
The bad wrong inconvenient
And coveted wanted longed for
The shared space gets smaller
Your face is very close your breath hot
Your hands appear from the blackness onto my hips
And I cannot pull back away out
Into the kiss I go letting you lead
And there is more in this dreamed of kiss
Then in my ending marriage
July 2000
