A New Beginning
its true that I still love you
the knots and tangled mess
the exhausted strain of affection
how can the pace be kept
when our selves are so unkempt
the troubles of our minds mesh
into some kind of emptiness
its harder than we thought
things seem so passionless
but we still belong, connected
how do we get through it intact
how do we understand and repair
the bitter, guilty thoughts here
selflessness became a tag game
yours, mine, ours, till the list was full
and we began to dream of escape
apart and complete
only the sharp twinge in our hearts
reminded us that it would hurt
I look at you and find too many things
in the way of seeing you clearly
Clearly, you duck, I hide, we fight
Is that what we wanted to be?
the whys and whats and whos don’t matter
the truths and lies become a sludgy mess
all I want is another start,
a first date, an introduction into your heart
and forget all the other stuff
drop the past and pain and things that don’t belong
and begin again, in love.
2/6/1995
